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I am scared of my future...
I want to have a quiet live without much trouble, but on the other hand I really want to study. Therefore I would have to go far away from my hometown and all people I know. I would be completely alone. I know I am not the social type, but I like to just KNOW that my family is downstairs watching tv or my sister living in the town next to us... I am afraid of big citys and my sense of direction is not just very bad it´s simply missing. I hate to do things on my own, like going to the doctor or organize something.
It´s not that I´m afraid of living alone in the way of not being able to looking after myself. I just like the feeling someone is around, if I need it. If I go study where I want to my family would be far away and there would be people I don´t know. I don´t want to share a flat either, I want my private space... 
Well but when I would have the chance to study what I always wanted to... I know it would be foolish of me not to try it at least... I just have the feeling of not being ready yet. Mostly mentally.
For now I decided to just not think about it. I will try to get accepted on this university and think about all the other stuff later. So if I won´t be accepted, well no worrys for me about living alone anymore, but I would have to look for another place to go. That would be near my hometown then and I would take what I can get around here. And if I would get accepted... I would be the happiest person in the world and the most frightened at the same time.

I´m sorry for so much information, but this was kind of self-counselling. I had the feeling writing it down would at least calm me down for now.

I´m over and out!
  • Mood: Worried
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: Yu Gi Oh 5ds
  • Playing: Guild Wars 2
Shinto..cats by der-kleene-Alchemist
Shinto..cats
SHinto with.... cats?... I did probably something wrong Oo
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Sketchbook Dekah and Shinto by der-kleene-Alchemist
Sketchbook Dekah and Shinto
I don´t have much time to draw lately. Here are just some random drawings I did between the lessons =/ 
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Sketchbook Charr by der-kleene-Alchemist
Sketchbook Charr
From my sketchbook... just some random drawings from sketchbook. 
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I am scared of my future...
I want to have a quiet live without much trouble, but on the other hand I really want to study. Therefore I would have to go far away from my hometown and all people I know. I would be completely alone. I know I am not the social type, but I like to just KNOW that my family is downstairs watching tv or my sister living in the town next to us... I am afraid of big citys and my sense of direction is not just very bad it´s simply missing. I hate to do things on my own, like going to the doctor or organize something.
It´s not that I´m afraid of living alone in the way of not being able to looking after myself. I just like the feeling someone is around, if I need it. If I go study where I want to my family would be far away and there would be people I don´t know. I don´t want to share a flat either, I want my private space... 
Well but when I would have the chance to study what I always wanted to... I know it would be foolish of me not to try it at least... I just have the feeling of not being ready yet. Mostly mentally.
For now I decided to just not think about it. I will try to get accepted on this university and think about all the other stuff later. So if I won´t be accepted, well no worrys for me about living alone anymore, but I would have to look for another place to go. That would be near my hometown then and I would take what I can get around here. And if I would get accepted... I would be the happiest person in the world and the most frightened at the same time.

I´m sorry for so much information, but this was kind of self-counselling. I had the feeling writing it down would at least calm me down for now.

I´m over and out!
  • Mood: Worried
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: Yu Gi Oh 5ds
  • Playing: Guild Wars 2

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der-kleene-Alchemist
Call me Alchi, please
Germany
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Hi^^"

Well, I dont know if someone is reading this, but Im here on DA because I want to improve myself in drawing. I will make my OC as lively as possible and I want to find my own style of drawing.
I love drawing, but when I have to color a picture I often dont have the passion to do it -,-

My dog is a big part in my life, he is with me the whole day ( except when Im at school, of course!)

Oh, well, and Im still learning english, so sorry if I cant speak it perfect, but I do my best.

... otherwise...any questions? then ask me :D Im not biting!... well, not often...
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Milk-and-Pie Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fav on Don't Fall In Love With A Writer, I really really appreciate it!! :iconlazypoolplz:

So sorry for the late thanks :iconrazycryplz:
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der-kleene-Alchemist Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014
no promblem =3
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NoranB Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for watching me :dummy:
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der-kleene-Alchemist Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014
with pleasure
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nazzba Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014
Danke fürs Watchen :)
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der-kleene-Alchemist Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014
gerne doch
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Mirax3163 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch! :heart:
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
with pleasure!^^
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ToraAndKyoko Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!! *Hug*kaomoji set 1 3/19 
Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -SHOULD- hug 10 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!
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Satosanteru Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for watching! Bunny Emoji-38 (Cutie) [V2]
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
^^ with pleasure
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itaXita Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2013
thank you so much for all your support! :iconloveloveplz: very much appreciated ^^
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
it was my pleasure, cause your stuff is awesome =D
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itaXita Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2013
awww :icononiononionplz: :tighthug: 

you have a very nice gallery yourself too, I'll be happy to watch you back ^^
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
oh my god =D thats... Im honored... thank you very much! <3
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Yoriru Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013
thank you so much for the watch! :thanks:
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
with pleasure!^^
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ToraAndKyoko Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
Neue ID? Wieso habe ich davon nichts mitbekommen? O.o
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
das ist aber schon laaange her Oo" Naja ich hab hier doch schon ab und zu mal n bissl an der Seite gebastelt und sogar ab und zu mal was gezeichnet XD... so nach nem halben Jahr Guild Wars 2 Sucht Oo
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ToraAndKyoko Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
tsstss... :D
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
MMOs sind halt bse =P Htte ich keine Schule wrde ich immernoch so wenig zeichnen XD Gut das ich jez quasi "muss"
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Dark-Uke Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thx so much for the +fav Heart
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emeraldbeam Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
happy b-day and hope you had a good day ^^
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:iconder-kleene-alchemist:
hank you!^^
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emeraldbeam Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you're welcome ^^
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